People Change

The pain of losing someone is the same, whether its death or a breakup. Well at least that's how it feels right now. Thankfully, its not death. Well really I'm just writing to try and blow off some steam and its like i'm talking to a friend. 
People Change.

I've heard and seen that so many times, but i guess like most things; Till it happens to you, you probably wouldn't understand and relate.
Excuse any grammatical errors and punctuation....
Well, this pain deep inside of me. I've tried to cry about it but somehow I just couldn't; which was strange. I told myself "Yayyy! You're getting stronger" . LIE!!! I hadn't come to terms with what was actually going on. 
People change. 
The most painful part of it all is the silence. You know its so painful when you're on one side of the road, trying to pull the other person and he/she is as obstinate as a goat.  Its painful cos in swallowing your pride and tryna reason and understand whats going on you just get this dumb silent treatment.
Someone told me everyone always wants to feel like a victim. I couldn't agree more.
People change.
Its funny how someone means so much to you and then in one split second anger would drive you to say the nastiest things to and about the person. Its painful cos you know you really don't mean them, but there's just something inside of you,  pushing, pushing and pushing till you hit yourself on the wall.
People change.
I know this is so stupid right now, giving the other person a reason to feel like they're winning. To hell with all that man!!! Why on earth wud I act like i had no feelings??? I did and I'm not ashamed one bit. I'm not gonna pretend to be one superhuman. I put my emotions, my all, everything into making stuff right. Patience and endurance and i got hurt!!! I'm only human.  Its sad cos it just shows me that what "we had" wasn't as real to him as it was to me.
People change.
I might be sad now but the good thing is everything was an experience. Experience isn't the best teacher, but then the ability to rise up again is what's most important. All this made me understand that truly God's Word is KEY!!! "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding" Proverbs 3: 5-6.Things wont always work out as planned but you can be sure that God always has a way of surprising you.I thank God for lovely, lovely friends who always support and encourage me. 

So folks, best believe ........   People change.